"Music; it'll stay. As a part of my life."

Haha, I don't know what have I been doing for the past few hours.
Practically gaming as an excuse to give myself a break after slogging for the past few weeks. Haha.
Okay, & tml's like that darn chem p1? In which, I'm so totally out of exam mood alr!
Haha, I guess many of us must had spent the past few days fruitfully yea. Like some going k and such.
(:

My comp's down due to some eccentric virus thingy which almost killed me as a result of boredom. -_____________________________-
But out of nowhere can access the game again.(: At least it spared boon's psp. Heh.
Goodness, I played that few gory games which almost cause my mum and dad to wake up cause of my screams. Haha.

& sat I became my brother's caretaker cause my parent's away to Malaysia for some religious thingy. I was so damn bored on friday that I was so determined to go out on sat. Haha. So brought my brother out with boon to hijack the arcade. Lol. I guess that was my brother's first time playing as much as he like in the arcade. I shan't talk much about the details though some scenes were really funny.

Ytd down to bugis to buy bag. Eyed on a few bags and bought one which was somewhat similar to zhiyi's. But I think mine's a bit small to contain all the school stuffs. Hmm, no idea. Then went vivo to catch Rule #1. Okay okay lah. It's just talking about that eerie eerie thing, ghosts.

Here's an overview of the movie. For those who are interested.(: Some thrilling parts (for me lah) and the entire show is practically talking about the fact if someone is possessed, don ever let that person touch you. Which means, you have to kill that person before he/she touches you. And so such kinda storyline revolves about killing your dear ones, your good friends and such. Yup, thats about it. Oh yea, and yiling asked me what was Fiona Xie's role in the movie? Haha, my reaction was like, hmm, she's practically sleeping? Haha, just that kinda typical wife waiting for her husband every night and sleeping before her husband reach home.-.- & at the end of the story Fiona Xie became an empty shell and blah, they live happily ever after.

Will you be here at
[10:24 PM]

HOHO. Block's kinda over. I was like telling yiling at her tagboard about the fact that if block tests's not over, we'll really turn into blocks soon. Haha.

Left with Chem p1 next tue which I don't intend to study.=/ Haha.

Yea, and confirm not going to taiwan with ruan xian already.:( Though I really wish to see the taipei liuqin ensemble.:( And whats more we're gna spend like a week there having music exchange sorta thing with them. Guess I'd not have this chance in future anymore. Well, things happen for a reason. & yea, their yu hou ting yuan really mesmerized me.(: it's a wonderful piece especially when they played it so well. Hmm, kinda upset about not going. But it took me quite some time to make this decision, && sacrificing many hours and brain cells. That will explain for my maths result this time round. Haha.

OH, whats now. long break ahead, like 4 days. Hmm, I really hope I can be serious about study after block's and all. Hopefully lah. Haha.

Alright, gonna reward myself with some games for the hard work past few days. Lol. To me its really hard work, though its like the minimal a JC student can do. Bahhs, whatever. Haha.

& boon's like really nice recently. Haha.(:

Will you be here at
[1:55 PM]

Kinda boring, so went blog-hopped and passed by wenhui's blog. Saw this thingy and decided to give it a try.

Your Birthdate: August 2

You're so intuitive, it's like you have a sixth, seventh, and eighth sense.

You connect with others freely and easily - and you tend to have many best friends.

Warm and caring, it's hard for you to close your heart to anyone.

Affection is like air for you - you need to give and receive it to survive.

Your strength: Your universal compassion

Your weakness: Your unpredictable mood swings

Your power color: Mauve

Your power symbol: Butterfly

Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I think, its kinda true in some aspect.

Well, tml's econs and gp paper which I haven't done a single shit about it. Sigh.
And maths and chem's like, only 2 chapters through which I need to study everything from J1 to now. Its, omg freaking hell. Not mentioning physics which I have never sat down to study it since last year. Though like, I'd somehow prefer physics to probably chem and such. But the H1 level does gave us some room to create excuse for not studying.

I gna flunk this block test like don't know what. But I just hope I can really get to work after block's. I really have to cause time running out for me. As in, A's like about 200 days away only. & I still know nothing about year 1 work. It's getting tougher already.

Will you be here at
[2:08 PM]

Block test's like in a few days time.
Which is like, =/

Anw, yiling came to see me after econs lesson ytd.
Really gotta thank her for taking the trouble to bring me the notes.
And she's always there when I need someone to rant at. Haha.
Thanks.^^

And she stayed over last night after bugging her aunt for like quite some time.
Haha.
We chatted alot, much more than doing work.
Although our tutorials were on the table since ytd afternoon till this morning 6am, we only like completed so little thing.
Poor yiling became so tired where I was still kinda enegertic.
I guess that was the difference when I slept 6 hours more than her.(:

Slept till 3+ woke up and game. Hmm..

Okay, tv now. Hopefully I can study later. Sigh.

Thanks yiling for her presence yesterday and many of those gloomy days.
& thanks many others who cared.(:

Will you be here at
[5:50 PM]

hello(:

& bye.(:

(I don't know why. This post made my brother laugh till he rolled on the floor.)

Will you be here at
[1:34 PM]

Done with the jokes part.

Now I just feel like blogging.
I was just telling ling, I finally see what's life in JC.

I used to think that I could handle the stress level.
But now, I see something which is not within my limits.
In the past, stress occur as a result of not doing work as such.
But now, its something which I have no solution to it.
The things we are learning now requires a lot of higher order thinking.
One which expects us to think beyond.

So people, not to discourage some of you, but, don't be deceive by 1st 3 months.
Its zillion times different as you get by.
Anw, this is my own perspectives lah.
Also as a result of not doing work. Blahs.
Maybe people who's done consistent work won't feel this stress as mine is accumulated one.

Having mixed feelings now.
Stress and worry but not doing anthing about it.
Yes, I'm doing something.
I'm practically gaming/chatting in msn.
Sigh.

I'm feeling ... now.

Will you be here at
[10:22 PM]

HAHA.

Just gotta know something from ling which is super hilarious!

Oh my.
Hahaaa.

My ct is actually such a humorous person yea.
HAHAHAHA.

He's actually so young at heart, that he does some kinda funny funny/stupid things!
Like uhm you know,
having an unknown identity.
And he loves guessing games!

Haha.
Mr ong, don be pissed when u see this.
Cause I'm complimenting you!

LAUGHS.

Will you be here at
[8:52 PM]

Sick today.:(

And its ultimately sian.
I haven't done anything for block test yet!
Thats gonna build up the stress level, definitely.

& yling just told me there's re-block-test if we fail.
Guess I gonna get it anyway.

SIGH,
is the only thing I can say.

Will you be here at
[2:40 PM]

Friday, marks the end of the week-days.

Well, today was release of A levels exams.
Saw many botaks and seniors back to school.
Guess it was quite nervous for them in anticipation for their results.
&& Nanyang's Art is MARVELLOUS!
100% As!
Oh holy god.
That was.. woah.

We, as J2s, sat there too.
The ultimate aim of the school is to let us feel how it'd be like one year from now.
We'll be like, uh-hmm, getting that darn results of ours.
& yea, we got back our A level chinese exam grade as well.
Well, not much of premonition about it, unlike those of O's.
I don't even felt like I've alr sat for one paper of A's.
I bet many felt so.
Cause we didn't have much intensive chinese those kinda things which sec school used to have.
& I feel that JC's chinese standard is really much higher.
But seriously, I feel that I learn nothing for chinese this year.=/

Not that the teacher isn't good, in fact she is fabulous!
Its just like what many of them say,
what can we expect the teachers to teach us within less than a year?
Yup, true indeed.

Our class did relatively alright, I guess.
All passed and congrats to Shuxin, Mo and Daryl for getting A!!
Haha, and I got a B which was okay to me cause, I almost failed for promos.=/
Anw, chinese grades aren't important lah, unless I'm going into those chinese related course.
Which is like, uh, A E I O U.
Haha.

How I wish the rest of my subjects can get at least a B which is like, impossible.
Okay, maybe for the time being. (to give myself the slightest hope! haha.)
Lol.
But it is no easy feat definitely.
Looking at the seniors get their results today were indeed impactful to a certain extent.
But, still no motivation yet.
I think I'm really dead this time round.

I tried. I tried to keep up the drive.
I did it, for at least a quarther of a year.
But I feel so dead now.
The chionging for the past few months or weeks is really draining me off.
I can say that I've exceeded my comfort zone until America alr lah!><

How how, where to dig out the motivation.:(
Anw, I really don't like the feeling of anticipation.
Especially when it takes such massive efforts and yet there's uncertainties.
Roars..!

Now's block test a week later.
& I seriously have not touch anything yet, which I feel even more sian.
The more sian I feel, the lesser the motivation.
I know I have to somehow get started.
But, just cannot.
AHH, what am I gonna do.

ANd my mum's talking to me about giving up half way ending with an O level cert.
Or even if I make it to Uni I'll drop out half way and end up with A's cert.
And what's the point.

Argh, like so kuku.><
Whatever, with their primitive thinking.

Okay, I shall see if I can get my butts in front of my table tonight.

Ohoh.
I saw police with guns just now at the Woodlands MRT.
Haha.
Their presence sure created a much tense atmosphere.
Oh, and I think I really think too much about the fact that Singapore is so small that one atomic bomb can destroy half of singapore. (my assumption)
Till to the extent that I dreamt of terrorists bombing Singapore and I was in the scene with boon.
Lol.
Funny.

HAHA-

Will you be here at
[5:54 PM]

I just saw shiqi, jierou and yuxuan at the interchange.
Oh gosh, I'm so happy to see them!!

Seriously,
very happy.

[:

I've never felt this happiness since don't know when.
haha.
It's some kinda un-describable feeling.
Elated and contented.(:

It really brightens up my day.(though the day is gna end soon)
haha.
I was like some mad woman laughing while walking home.
Laughs.

Really miss you people and do take care yea!

Well, block test in 2 weeks time which is like, arghh.
Okay, I hope I can take things easier, like how I used to be in secondary school.
But do away with secondary school studying habits please.

Haiyah, whatever, I just love my friends.(:

That was, random luh.

Oh yea.
And yingteng came back to nyco today.
And she bought choc for weijian and me.
That was so sweet of her.(:

Yea, I shall go game awhile.
Yes, awhile I hope.

Will you be here at
[11:34 PM]