"Music; it'll stay. As a part of my life."

Idk why I go school to fail papers everyday.

"every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."
-thought this was quite true but I can never adhere to it.

Looking forward to going back wgs on wed to teach juniors.

(:

Will you be here at
[12:21 PM]

Felt more relieved now.
No expectation, no disappointment.
If you get what I mean.

Will you be here at
[10:37 PM]

WEEE.
MCO today!
Like, finally.
But didn't get to play those few traditional pieces like long de chuan qi today.
Like finally get to go back MCO recently cause there's no more school co prac on sat and no consultation tentatively due to exams.
Must cherish the time I have over at there.
At least now it's not as strange as when I went back for the first time after a long break.(:

Idk why I'm like aching up down left right.=/
Oh I'm like don't know what to do recently.
Shall catch up with old friends!

And the string laoshi gave me snapped alr!
Aww so sad. But I was so surprised that it lasted for like 1 mth.
Power...~
Ahhhh, I got no more liuqin first string alr.
But the 3rd and 4th strings are like piling up.
Haha, any kind souls willing to drop by Karl Heng to help me get?
Bugis' so farrrrrrr.
I'm lazy to go.

&&&& today I read 2 chinese books, or rather comics sort, to my brother.
and I almost died. Like, all the chinese characters felt so strange after not having in contact with it for a year or so!
Lol.

Okay, shall play game awhile there.
Cause I've got no liuqin to play now, you see.
I seldom prac as well, just that when the feel comes.
Haha.
I gna improve loads now!
Need to regain skills plus gain new skills.
Haha, sounds cool.
But I guess all these will have to wait till after A's.
=(
I wanna have lessons badly now.
Haha, kinda miss laoshi!

Alright. That's about it.

Yea, and I believe this is better.
It's better as in, I don't bother as much, lest getting myself all so down.

Will you be here at
[9:43 PM]

Brought common sense to school for paper today.
Well.
Didn't turn out as bad as I thought.
At least I didn't stone there.
Ahh, I've had enough of those bookworms out there who came frantically to me on the first day of exam early morning ask me if I've studied the rest.
Come on, I'm not even prepared for the first.
zzz.
Get a life man, whats the point of comparing how muchhhhh people have studied.
Goodness.

But I know I wasn't as relaxed as the past taking exams.
And dahh, certainly caused some level of stress.
How I miss the secondary school time when I can easily say things like, why need to care so much about this exam when its not O levels.
I still say it now, sometimes, but definitely not as xiao1 sa3 as the past.
I don't like this, seriously.
Maybe its because in the past friends around you all walk into the battlefield and die together.
During exam time just look around and u see people there communicating with you.
Although we died, but at least there were companion.
I'm not like say, drag people down, but rather, you know there are people who die with you in exams.
So, not at all frantic.
Unlike now. =/
Where everything seems so tensed.
Somehow miss people like lds. Lol.
Thats what a real slacker is.
And I'd rather be that kind.
Results thrown to the last nvm, what matters is happy go lucky everyday.
I hope to find back some of my last time traits, though not really good.
But at least all those won't cause insomnia like now.-.-

I know I'd sorta given up this mye alr, I'll just try to at least read.
Really must try, ytd econs totally, cannot sit down to study.
Chem tml, somehow I know I may not finish everything cause I haven't start at all.
And I don't feel like starting. Like, I know I probably won't do much later, but I hope I can at least read though a few chapters.
Its like, I don wish to disappoint Miss Tan as well.
After all she did help us alot.

Yea, guess thats all.
What else?
I wanna go back to music world, badly badly.

Sigh.

Will you be here at
[1:16 PM]

Yes, I knew it.
High fever ytd plus all the cough and flu and now still haven't recover.
Finally had energy to get out of bed.
Now what I worry is mye.
Left 5 days and I haven't start anything at all.
And don't think I still can do work this few days.
Think mye this time is a gone case.

Will you be here at
[1:00 PM]

I swear I gna start mid year revision tomorrow!!

But I have a dead feeling that I'm gna be sick soon.

Arghh.><

Will you be here at
[11:45 PM]

Been down to IT fare these few days with boon.
Gotten some good deals actually.
Upgrades shall await the next IT fare for any IT-related products.

& family chalet ytd.
Quite fun but tiring.
Just got my phone and ytd was totally packed and I couldn't go to Wanying's Bday celebration.
Sorry.><

Yea, and I haven't start doing MYE stuffs.
Deep shit, seriously.
Gna do printer set up now.
Like finally.

Bye!

Will you be here at
[5:07 PM]

I realised that many of my links were not valid anymore.
Hah, but I'm Lazy to change and edit. Wait till after A's perhaps.
Hahaa.

Well anw, read through a few syco people's blog.
Yea, I do agree that everything is not the same anymore after a year's break or so.
As in like, I know we don't feel as attached and closed as before.
Like how we can pour out our troubles and share with each other.
Like, once so closed friends, now, sorta seemed strange.
I sorta regretted taking leave this year.
But I know I gained other things in one way or another.
At least I do not need to be so tired in certain days of the week due to travelling time.
But its like sy practice are on alternate days this year.
In fact it doesn't really affect that much.
Rahh, life cannot move backwards.
So I shall move on.
I will get back to syco next year!
Cause I miss the music, stage, friends there.
& I really have to do something to repay some of those teachers who guided me along!
I will!!

Will you be here at
[12:13 AM]

My phone died on me!
So for now I cant see any display on the screen but I still can call and probably send sms but I can't see received msgs.

So people, call me if needed!
And shout out your name when u call me. (:

Will you be here at
[9:48 AM]

-just reached home not long ago.
-sy concert ytd.
-it really feels different being an audience and performer of SYCO.
-heartening to see so many friends that we once went through hardcore practices tgt.
-brain isn't processing now i guess.
-stay out ytd till now.
-haven't start work.
-yet two more week left.
-no momentum.
-excuses.
-but i will try.
-i've had all my fun, its time to start.
-&& Situ laoshi is really nice. I don't know how I can ever express my gratitude towards him. He's really, a rare teacher around you can ever find. I'll do what I promised after A's. And I will. Though with that lil amount of lessons I've had, he still treats me really nice. As in, I feel ashamed for disappointing him, creating excuses and such, and claiming I was how busy where he knew in fact I was not diverting all the time to studies. Where I did not hold up to my promises and such. But he still treats me as his student and never give up on me.
I'm really sorry, but thats not the word to say.
I mean, I'll do him proud one day.
-And I know I disappointed many people, by claiming I need to give up co cause I need to study. Some friends ranted at me on sat as well. I knew that'd happen. I'm disappointed in myself for not being able to strike a balance btw studies and co and xxx.
-But I just cannot get to STUDY, this particular thing. But, sigh, I know I have to start soon. I can't afford to fail. For at least, to those people I've made a pact with.

Okay, some reflections here, hoping it'll motivate me on. I have 2 weeks left for totally untouched full JC curriculum.
Wanted to type in point form cause my brain processor broke down but well..
Anw, my phone is half cranky alr. So, I may not be able to reply asap due to some once-happened problem.

Alright, I don't know what I'm taking alr, shall see what to do next.

Will you be here at
[10:23 PM]

I STILL CANNOT START!

I'm getting pissed.

Will you be here at
[4:20 PM]

I have yet to start on revision for mye,
& its pretty sinful cause the second week gonna come to an end soon,
occ and weekends.

Someone tell me how how how.
I just cannot get started.
I cannot get sitted either.
I know at this point of time, my girls would tell me: The problem lies with your mindset your thinking, there's nothing we can do.
Yep, I know its true, but,
I've not gotten used to studying yet.
& if Mr Ong were to see this, he'll surely ask me one thing,
then how long u wan to take to get used it? Then retain 1, 2, 3 years?
Okay, that's nuts.

Haha, practically I've been hearing these comments for the past years every time I rant about my studying attitude.

I am finally done with sgc, much copy paste work to be done.
Okay, my sgc is not that copyright, cause its from several sources.
By mixing, it became my copy.
Lol, smart hur.
But I may just get a hell loads scolding later.
But, who cares.
I am never serious when it comes to studying.
Okay wait a moment, I am occasionally really serious in studies this year.
But some people just cannot see, like uh-hmm.

It's been rollarcoaster rides, ups and downs.
I think most of the time the problem's with me, whats my darn problem man?
I really looked too much into things I care for, in fact, overly.
I'm more of those extremist when it comes to handling things.
I will look alot into things I'm concerned with.
But when its something I'm not that concerned (i.e studies), I don't give a hoot about it. Like, I don't feel there's a need to see the problem as such serious case cause it weighs nothing in my heart.
As such, I'm able to take things in stride and have a doesn't-matter-what-will-happen mindset.
But when its something I really care, I may go overboard to the extent of looking into every small single details.
Pardon me, cause I'm like that.
But I will do something to it, hope you can understand.

Will you be here at
[10:21 PM]

Music is love; CO is love; Liuqin is love.

Will you be here at
[3:01 AM]

Much fulfilling day with boon and family.(:
His aunt is not as scary as I thought to be, but rather, very amicable!
Imagine having nightmares about it before.=/
Well, I guess most bad dreams turn out to be the other way round while wonderful dreams may be just the reality. Haha.
Really ought to thanks his mum and aunt for the hair treatment and dinner today,
& my hair still carries the herbs smell. Haha.

& his cousins are so lovely! Seriously. Lol.

Okay, all in all it was a great day today.
Somehow, maybe with a lil thorns here and there.
Why?
Cause life is never fair.

:D

Will you be here at
[2:38 AM]

Laughs,
I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS.

(:

Currently stoning in school's comp lab, while waiting for that slow slow jer to reach.
Haha, school is so so far from my house!!=/
Came to school for OCC meeting.
Haha, didn't prepare the worksheets as required, so I just anyhow huntum a few questions once I reached.=/
I think Jasmine and Zhiling are a friendly load, and its nice to work with them. (:
& its fun too!
Cause we were like, unprepared and such. Lol.

Okay, Zhiyi just came up and I think stella's outside.
Zhiyi and stella came to do OCC proposal and also to pass me a draft of SGC.
Ahhh, thinking of writing SGC freaks me off.
-___________________________________________________-
Where's that slow slow short short jer!!!
HAHA.

Oh yea, just a random comment, MO!!
Please tag me when u view my blog.
Cause you're like so mysterious, appearing out of nowwhere.

Rahh, one week of hols simply went past just like that.
And I haven't done anything.
And I cannot start at all.
Am I just gna fail Mids, and get demoted back to J1?
Awww, thats bad man.
But I don't have the motivation to start.
I feel that home are full of distractions and even without those, I could just roam about aimlessly in that small house of mine.
zzz.
The feeling's really bad, walking around like a living corpse.

RAHH!
Okay, ding's here.
Bye!!(:

Oh yes, HCCO concert was really nice!! (:
Indeed a gwh standard.
:D

Will you be here at
[12:10 PM]