"Music; it'll stay. As a part of my life."

A post for me to rant something out of everything.

It just seems like everything is going downhill for me!
My qin is sent for repair and I lost my pick!
It's like so important cause it may take some time to get used to a new one.
And it's even more difficult to find a relatively good one and I actually misplaced it!
AHHHHHH.
And I didn't turn up for lesson today as I was sick.
Really feel so damn frustrated, wanna give up so much!

Wth is happening with my life?!

And I haven't even sat down to prac for the audition pieces when all these happened.
It's like, audition is on wed and marvellously one of the piece is at tempo 240 plus my hands are slow slow now due to not practising for a long time.
Okay, what can I do now. I need a new pick!
Why isn't that old pick which got lost?!

Freaking.

Plus all the things which made me have sleepless nights since the 18th.
&&& I've yet to get a job where friends around are all working.=///
Whereas I'm just slacking away time every single day and not doing any constructive work.
When will this period get over?!
It's gonna affect me way too much.
Arghhh.

Will you be here at
[11:10 PM]

Totally demoralised today.=/
Need to brush up skills quick!

I badly, seriously, realllyyyyy need my liuqin back, can't do without it!:((
No mood to play qin at all. Rahh, how can I?!

Will you be here at
[11:17 PM]

Just wanna sleep in..

Will you be here at
[2:46 AM]

Feel so damn shitty.
Friends, come on.

I'm in no mood for anything rahh, no mood to work to mood to play, no mood to chill out or anything that teens my age would do.

Feel so lifeless everyday.

Rahhhhhhh.

I NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT, NEED TO RANT.

Will you be here at
[11:58 PM]

It's amazing how emotions change overnight.
I need a new lease of life man, shacks.

Will you be here at
[11:30 PM]

Pardon for the rude language but,
Damn. I totally hate it!!!
Whatever, just f off, china bitch.

I need to scream!
I DON'T WANT TO BE HOME!
Bring me away far far from home please.
Not the problem with home, but I just don't want to stare into empty space and get into some emo-ish kinda attitude.

Care for a drink anyone?

Whatever.

One of life's greatest pitfalls.
How am I gna face it man.
I got no answer to it.
Keep on smiling, go on.

Will you be here at
[2:32 AM]

FCC today again!
& probably tml and the day after tml and so on.
Well, gotta say that I feel rather guilty for slacking my time away in co rather than looking for a decent job.=/
Ahh, I don't know, just so sian nowadays.:(

Okay, well, thats all.

Oh my, something malu just happened!!!
Super duper ps!!!
Ahh, okay Dean stop laughing!
><

Will you be here at
[12:46 AM]

Last sat was mco prac. Can say like finally for the first time I get to go through the concert's songs.
Was kinda looking forward to my first sectionals with Zhangli ls, unfortunately she was sick.
Co all the way till 6, then headed to fcc with the liuqin members to beautify our liuqin parts. Lol.
Sent shini home then went home, chatted with bkian along the way. Was chased away by a cat in the midst of chat at Frangrant Woods. Dont't feel like going home then went to her house downstairs. Saw kiansoon and leonard at around midnight then chatted for awhile.
Walked home at around 2am, reached, online, tv, sleep.
Sunday went to fcc again. Lion prac in the morning, quite alot turned up.
Stayed, liuqin with shini, rot, slack then went home, tv, dazed for 4 hours, finally got to sleep.

Okay, a messy post, rahh, anything, tuoling prac at 6.30.
Bye.

Will you be here at
[2:43 PM]

Was down at nyps these few days.
&& seriously the kids are hilariously cute! Those p1 and p2 girls really made my day, but its a tough time having to communicate the same way as them, but I like kids!
:D

Okay, they like kept saying, 'laoshi I want to go to the toilet', 'laoshi wo yao xiao bian', 'i don want to play anymore, my fingers gna break'.

Laughs.

Oh yeah, Mengjie was at nyps these 2 days too. I bet zixin will go gaga if she sees him there lol.

Okay, then headed to fcc on both days so as to lengthen my days outside rather than cooping at home.
The heartwarming scene was seen once again.
& tml is mco prac from 9-6.
Kinda good, as that meets my purpose of staying out as late as possible everyday.

Coincidentally met kahchee these 2 days, once at np 961 bus stop and another at wdl interchange.
Then zheng brothers at fcc.
They were like, 2 years passed by so quickly and I've alr graduated.
Yeah true, but lotsa changes within these 2 years I guess.
Yup.

Don't wanna think of the past too much if not I'll fall down like what happened on the road today, luckily there were no vehicles.=/
Slight bruises which made me cannot walk instantaneously, but after that jiu alright le.

Guess I haven't blog like this for quite some time alr.
Hmm, shall do so when I'm free and make my blog more lively.
Alright, haven't been sleeping well these few nights, hope to be able to soon!:D

Shall go do some other stuffs.
Ciaos~

Will you be here at
[11:11 PM]

It's for a good cause.

Job recommendations anyone?
Probably just throw any at me, I just want to be occupied 24/7.

Yeah, just anything will do.

Will you be here at
[1:19 AM]

OH MY!
My liuqin needs to be hospitalised!
She has a disjointed neck!!

So sad.:(

Will you be here at
[5:09 PM]

It's gonna be over real soon!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Will you be here at
[9:14 PM]

ARGHHHHHH!!!

Will you be here at
[7:51 PM]

3 papers down.
7 more to go.
....................................

Will you be here at
[12:04 PM]

I think I'm so gna screw my A's man.:(
Not a bit wonder why I didn't put in effort while I can.
But....
The thing is I'm to lazy.=/
Well, guess result will reflect effort.

Will you be here at
[7:15 PM]