"Music; it'll stay. As a part of my life."

jessly; says:
ya luh. i think sheng's the most disgusting instrument in CO!
aLL^2^GoD says:
EXACTLY la
aLL^2^GoD says:
gao yin sheng not so disgusting
aLL^2^GoD says:
but i tell u
aLL^2^GoD says:
last time i in PJ... join CO 1st time
aLL^2^GoD says:
made to play GYS
aLL^2^GoD says:
mann,
aLL^2^GoD says:
cannot suck wn...
aLL^2^GoD says:
only can blow
aLL^2^GoD says:
i suck.. COUGH mann
jessly; says:
HAHAHA
aLL^2^GoD says:
inside like all the GREEN GREEN
jessly; says:
omg thats funny
aLL^2^GoD says:
YUCKSSSS
aLL^2^GoD says:
disgusting la
jessly; says:
EEE YEWWW
jessly; says:
AHHA
jessly; says:
i said sheng's the most disgusting thing in CO!
jessly; says:
haha
aLL^2^GoD says:
i'm disgusted la
aLL^2^GoD says:
dun say ler
aLL^2^GoD says:
then press some button no sound de
aLL^2^GoD says:
irritating
aLL^2^GoD says:
wan play, then paly crap instrument.. might as well dun play right?
aLL^2^GoD says:
lol

JUST FOR LAUGHS.
Apologies to people playing Sheng.
Hee.

Will you be here at
[2:06 AM]

Pokka green tea just doesn't as nice as before;
or was there a change in my taste and preferences?

I think, XXX brand plum tea seems nicer.
But somehow to a certain extent.

Ultimately, boon's still the nicest.
Well, I mean, sometimes, really.

Haha.

Random.

Will you be here at
[11:54 PM]

Boredom; overcame me.

Will you be here at
[8:41 PM]

what the hell.
fuck them up.

Will you be here at
[4:24 PM]

Just a random note:

SLACKERS UNITED!!

Blah..

Ask me out to study during this study break. (Yes, it is to emphasize that its not a holiday to us. First time in 12 years of schooling, no more a holiday.)
If not I'll just gna rot away this few weeks.

It's ironic, I know.

Will you be here at
[2:42 PM]

damn.
Okay, I should be more refined.
Rahh.

But that just simply describes how I feel.

I dislike that irksome eyesight you're giving me.
I do what I want to & that's my own problem okay.
Really, its none of your concern, you need not give me that kinda look.
Okay, it is subjective, but I just don't like what you're showing me.

zzz.

anw, tml's gp paper.
I've totally got no idea what to study, though I managed to pack my notes last night.
Bahhs, I don wanna study.:((
People used to say that English is something under the Sun. No studying required.
And this was always what I did.
Now, its different, GP (being another form of English), requires memory work, even much more taxing than a few other subjects.
And some of my classmates already started to memorise since last week, oh my tian.
Lol, I'll never be able to do that.
But I just can't scrape a pass for GP.
Blame it on not reading since young.
& blame it on my Lazy character which caused me to not touch a single book till now.
Still remember what the counsellor told us,
"read English, speak English, & DREAM English."

Ahh, forget it, I know I just gonna flunk GP like usual.
But somehow, don't know, I feel that something is amiss.
As bad as other subjects may fare, its different from this.

Some of them just don't understand how it feels as non-mugger and gave us a XXX look.
Come on, lead your own life, why bother about people like, me.
I just can't be like a 24 hour MUGGER who sits down there just to study and agree to every single shit the tutors say, when what they say obviously sound wrong to me.
zzz.

This may sound hostile, but I'm just speaking what I wanna say.

I WANT FREEDOM.
I DON'T WANT TO BE CONFINED.
I DON'T WANT THIS KIND OF LIFE.

Will you be here at
[3:41 PM]

Went back to WGSCO with Zixin, Wenhui and Carrine ytd.
Reached CO room and they were practising the supposedly syf song, while the sec ones were at sectionals.
Felt really elated to see fellow juniors and their improvements! (:

Went to Tanbo sectional classroom and to my surprise, saw Bkian and Sharon there!
Then Bkian, Zixin, Wenhui and I were like screaming lah!! (yea, we really miss each other!)
Haha.
^^

I miss the stage.

Will you be here at
[12:37 PM]

Went back to MCO on sat cause Miss Tan weren't free for consultation!
I really wish I can go MCO every week.
There is really some sense of belonging there.
New faces, new CO room.

I WANNA GRADUATE BADLY!

tata.

Will you be here at
[11:48 AM]

Woosh, we owe our early day off to Nanyang Vball Team!!
& yea, entire J2 cohort's gna go to support them at the finals later on!
FIGHT ON!
I'm sure they can do it!
& we'll probably get another half day break if they win. (:
Haha, thats besides the point.

Haha, anw, whatever,crap.
Haha. Its like an hour's time before we depart to TPY stadium.
& I'm in the comp lab with Jer blogging, Mo studying physics & Stella sleeping.
Mel's gone to vball and Zhizhi's with council.
Well, only proper lesson was Maths lect.
I fell asleep then..

xD

What's the enjoyment about when tml's physics test. zzz.

Anw, I think my temper's becoming real bad. I don't know, like a volcano which can erupt anytime anywhere? As long as something gets on my nerves and I'm like a patient in IMH?
Haha, to a certain extent its exaggeration.
But I seriously need to curb my temper! I know I really really need to.
I don't seemed like what I used to be.
Changes, perhaps brought out a different personality in me.
I don't like this, I should say.
Like in life, we tend to take things for granted.
But its uncontrollable at times.(many times in fact)
I feel the guilt after I did so, but I feel resonable enough to do so.
AHHH, sound so irony.

Life is irony anyway.

Haha.
whats with me trying to talk about great philosophies of life.
HAHA, LOADS OF CRAPS.

Hey wait, I don't feel like laughing, why am I HAHA-ing.
ZZZ.

Thats me.

><

Will you be here at
[12:06 PM]

Was late for school so might as well come comp lab to do some blogging. (:

Haha, just saw Mr Ong while on the way up.
He was like blah-ing about being late but didn't say much this time though.
& he knew i'm gna slack here first.
He was like saying, "you all econs so bad already still don't go for lesson. When are u all gna improve your econs lor?"
Well, I replied, "soon." (:

I think my ultimate desire each day is to end the freaking lesson & get outta school.
Not the school problem, but somehow the muggers atmosphere.
Sometimes it really felt like we are kept in a cage.
You know, that kinda feeling.xD

&& oh side track a lil, saw Anthea & Audrey this morning while awaiting for the god damn long bus to reach. (alright, bus is still just, this long.=p)
Chatted more with Anthea though. Haha.
&& kinda miss the CO scene where I used to be so familiar with.
Somehow or another felt that coming to JC has changed many things. & in fact, lost many things.
But in a way or another, loss=gain.
Ahh, holy crap, sound so emo. Haha.
Was updated on some Happenings in various CO.
Somehow I really wonder, if thats where I belong. Haha.
I feel that its extremely difficult to love studying like how I love music,
though sometimes music stuffs can really get on your nerves.
But its inevitable lah, when its a career its different.
I should say that, I'm okay with the path I chosed/being brainwashed to choose, just with some complaints here and there.
Haha, probably not some complaints, but loads of it!

Alright, I seriously miss my friends and CO pals where we used to jam music and such together.
Nevertheless, I love the people around me now. Its really great being with them! (particularly 21 cliques and some nyco juniors) & I'm glad that most of them are getting on well with theior loved ones.^^
Yea, I really lack time management I guess.
As in, I gave up so many things, claiming that the time be diverted to studies, but I don't think I made use of the time well.
I believe I'm someone who needs a tight schedule to motivate me on.
Haha, so get me real busy man, and I'll start complaining again!
Laughs, way too contradicting.

Alright, think its time for physics and god damn that physcis test on friday which I like don't know whatsoever !@*%&%^$*!@#%@#$^$/

Lol, I mean, whatever.

Haha, okay where's the rest of the girls now.

*Jer calls*

K bye! (:

Will you be here at
[8:45 AM]

& the unspoken speaks.

Sometimes we just need a break or so in our life to move on, to accept more challenges.

Yes, & I took a two days break, partially cause I'm sick due to the unfriendly weather. :(

Lying on the bed, my thoughts wonder. & I reflected loads. Many things had happened recently, traumatizing me.

& in pain and agony.

But I learnt through all these.

I have to stand strong, I know.
I'll hold on to that belief and perservere on. (:

I know we can.

Will you be here at
[11:28 PM]

I don't feel like blogging.

but i've got 48482346292513 things to say.

(alright, its irony)

Will you be here at
[2:48 PM]

NYCO bbq ytd.

(:

& I discovered Junyuan's & probably Zhiwen's DARK secret!!

HAHA.

Will you be here at
[5:06 PM]