Well, today was release of A levels exams. Saw many botaks and seniors back to school. Guess it was quite nervous for them in anticipation for their results. && Nanyang's Art is MARVELLOUS! 100% As! Oh holy god. That was.. woah.
We, as J2s, sat there too. The ultimate aim of the school is to let us feel how it'd be like one year from now. We'll be like, uh-hmm, getting that darn results of ours. & yea, we got back our A level chinese exam grade as well. Well, not much of premonition about it, unlike those of O's. I don't even felt like I've alr sat for one paper of A's. I bet many felt so. Cause we didn't have much intensive chinese those kinda things which sec school used to have. & I feel that JC's chinese standard is really much higher. But seriously, I feel that I learn nothing for chinese this year.=/
Not that the teacher isn't good, in fact she is fabulous! Its just like what many of them say, what can we expect the teachers to teach us within less than a year? Yup, true indeed.
Our class did relatively alright, I guess. All passed and congrats to Shuxin, Mo and Daryl for getting A!! Haha, and I got a B which was okay to me cause, I almost failed for promos.=/ Anw, chinese grades aren't important lah, unless I'm going into those chinese related course. Which is like, uh, A E I O U. Haha.
How I wish the rest of my subjects can get at least a B which is like, impossible. Okay, maybe for the time being. (to give myself the slightest hope! haha.) Lol. But it is no easy feat definitely. Looking at the seniors get their results today were indeed impactful to a certain extent. But, still no motivation yet. I think I'm really dead this time round.
I tried. I tried to keep up the drive. I did it, for at least a quarther of a year. But I feel so dead now. The chionging for the past few months or weeks is really draining me off. I can say that I've exceeded my comfort zone until America alr lah!><
How how, where to dig out the motivation.:( Anw, I really don't like the feeling of anticipation. Especially when it takes such massive efforts and yet there's uncertainties. Roars..!
Now's block test a week later. & I seriously have not touch anything yet, which I feel even more sian. The more sian I feel, the lesser the motivation. I know I have to somehow get started. But, just cannot. AHH, what am I gonna do.
ANd my mum's talking to me about giving up half way ending with an O level cert. Or even if I make it to Uni I'll drop out half way and end up with A's cert. And what's the point.
Argh, like so kuku.>< Whatever, with their primitive thinking.
Okay, I shall see if I can get my butts in front of my table tonight.
Ohoh. I saw police with guns just now at the Woodlands MRT. Haha. Their presence sure created a much tense atmosphere. Oh, and I think I really think too much about the fact that Singapore is so small that one atomic bomb can destroy half of singapore. (my assumption) Till to the extent that I dreamt of terrorists bombing Singapore and I was in the scene with boon. Lol. Funny.